You Slipped Away…
Is there any chance that u remember me being more than just a horrible man? And would you consider, pulling this trigger, and taking a second shot at us in the future, I know the days I took u as my girl and I was your man, I know n realized I took u for granted n I see how much I love u and miss u, I can’t act fake, I can’t b phony, acting hard is the reason why nigga’s is lonely, when u left u took the very best thing that I had n ever happened to me. What is it about your crazy ass? I swear that every freaking moment all I think about is u, everyday, everyway, so much I can’t take it, what is it really about u? because I never loved a woman harder then I’m loving u, but the truth is that you’re not mine, I know that you want to start a new chapter in your life, and I can ask myself a million times to “Why can’t I be a part of this next Chapter to make and change the story for the better?”, but they way things have turned out, I don’t deserve to be in this chapter, but I have a feeling that our love will grow even stronger and this will just be a few pages, due to the fact that we are the authors and every story have an alternate ending that we can write together, a happy and everlasting ending together, and if I can’t have you the way that I want, my babe, my girl, my love, the mother of my children, my wife, my heart, than I don’t want nobody else! I’m selfish, soooo so so selfish. If I can’t have u, I’m nervous that I won’t have anything left, you’re the sweetest thing, never wanted to break up but we did it. I was at my best when I was with you, I can’t stop thinking of you, and it’s funny how things may rearrange…you used to be my number one, my one and only lover, you made a difference in my life and it happened at the moment I saw your face, it was your eyes that made it easy. It’s not hard to understand, because anyone else that sees’s you, sees and feels the same way. Love looks good on you. Your eyes say it all, their fixed upon an object of desire you can’t control but gravity compels you to ignite and explode till our time and space combine you’ll fantasize…The unknown. Seduce and analyze and the objective is to conquer deep inside… the warmth that only you and I generate when we collide, just hold that, and don’t make my emotions peak. If I let go then I’ll be weak, your control is my defeat and remember I repeat to never, never, never will I give up. I don’t know if I’ll win but I know that I want to do it again. So I had to take the chance to let you know you’re so amazing and you changed my life in so many ways, I just look back to how I used to be and how you dealt with me. I just want to thank you and give you soo much credit for sticking with me this long. Just in case I never see your face again, just in case the worst was meant to happen, Just in case tomorrow never come, there is something you should know, I’ve given and always will give you every bit of the man I am of the man I am, I know at times it wasn’t pretty. I never held back not one “lil” bit and the world can demonstrate to this…you flipped my upside, down ….listen to me now… You got my life together and I thank you forever… But all that has changed my state of mind you got it right…And i love life. Yo! I love you for life. I know there were a couple times I wasn’t there for you and for everyone of those times I hated myself for it, The way I went about it, the ups and the downs, one foot in while the other foots out, Loving on your loving on another would only kill me emotionally and mentally…What I did to you right here, right now in this here place, in this here space as my heart pour out as I state my place, so I can tell you where I’m coming from…you’ve seen the good you’ve done…So you’ve felt and feel the change, stay with me every day. I want to get to know you and see what makes you laugh. I want to be your future, forget about the past, I want to make u happy by just being me, because I don’t know how to be no one else. If I died tonight before I wake? Know that you touched my life in oh so many ways, and should all this I had to give… would you remember? Remember my heart, remember it was good, remember I tried as long as I could, remember that I gave till I had nothing else, and just remember my voice. I ask myself and it’s so hard to see, how can you see yourself anywhere but here with me? You said that u needed space and time to make up your mind, you said if I set you free, that one day you’ll be ready to come back to me. Did you really mean it? I hope and pray u did ever night…u slipped away.
